[He could add that with other women never being more glad that they couldn't bare children.]

I've thrown myself into plenty of self destructive things before... It ☠☠☠☠ hurts but...

[His mood picked up again, she was doing good without even trying.]

... But I never backed down before. I can leave the thinking problems to others, I'll take care of the stuff I can do...And those two kids I can ☠☠☠☠ up...

[Or so he assumed...]